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Yess the artstyle is great I love it.

And thank you, recently had my 1 year anniversary and things are looking amazing for us, I just know they’re the one <3

Do you still live by that? How’s it going?

Also no substances required for my journey, lol

I’m veeeery extremely biased because ILA ended up becoming our very first connection with my now partner, but I love it soo much. I relate to Amy a lot, and there are a lot of fun characters to explore (and cool ships aside from canon). According to my partner who knows ab this stuff more than I do, there are very little GL media with the kind of ending ILA has, so that’s a nice selling point I think.

haha, it’s not for everyone, but it’s something.

I really hope that’s the case. I still am quite pessimistic in nature, but I want to have hope.

As someone who was suicidal as a child and never thought to make it past 18:

I guess I just like living. I like putting the effort and seeing the results, even if it’s a lot of effort for just a small payoff. I also like knowing that I matter, and that people around me are happy with my pressence.

I also really like the thought of making a change. Be vocal about my life experiences and maybe changing someone’s mind. Swimming backstroke to be true to myself, and making a stance. The normal way is not the only way, you know?

I also adore art. I like connecting to a piece of art, seeing human emotions molded into such a fasinating sound, ambience, coreography, phrase, whatever. Knowing that someone felt something so strong and constant, that they had to rush to create something, and express it, share it with everyone with a tint of creativity, just as I do.

To answer your question, I’m gonna go with: Find something you like, and just keep doing it. I love creative works and human expression, but maybe you like something else. Biology, technology, cooking? Connect with it and start small. A small flower in a pot is enough.

The only way I can now describe how young me felt, is blind. I spiraled into a really awfully negative nihilism after an ugly life event that made me stop believing in God (to this day I consider myself an atheist, and I don’t think that’s ever gonna change. And I don’t want it to change). I thought that life did not have a purpose, that all the suffering and the pain and the bad thoughts were all for nothing, since there was no meaning to it all. My only refuge to the pain was daydreaming about a world in which I was never born, in which I didn’t hurt my friends. Everything else, didn’t matter. The things that made me happy weren’t working.

The years went by, the feeling stayed there. “Why do this, if I’m gonna end up dying anyways?”.

But eventually, my vision started changing. Maybe it was just growing up, maybe it was meeting new people that challenged my perspective of the world, maybe it was finding my currently favorite music artist and seeing his journey. My memory is a bit foggy due to all the trauma, sorry. But my vision started going upside down. Suddenly it clicked for me: Life has no meaning, but that’s not actually bad. It’s freeing, actually. Existence being inherently meaningless meant that I had no greater expectations. If there truly was no meaning, what’s stopping me from doing what makes me happy, and just keep doing it? Besides life obligations, I could do whatever I want, whenever I want, however I want. That’s prime environment for experimenting, for discovering myself, and finding my own, small, not cosmic-level meaning that made me wake up every morning: Happiness. I was gonna fight with life so I could get the happiness I deserved, and that’s what I’m doing to this day.

I know this answer won’t magically cure the depression of everyone reading this. Some people just have fucked up dopamine receptors, some people do cling to religion, some people don’t have the amount of freedom in their lives to do what they truly like. But I’m throwing my story here for the chance that it lifts at least one person up, even if that motivations lasts for just the rest of the day.

I also know the future is looking real bad. The things I thought I could be doing 3-4 years ago are off the table. And people seem more hateful with each day passing. That has taken a toll on me. Sometimes I just want to quit. But I’ll keep fighting, for the people who cannot.

Femtanyl mentioned !!

idk if ListenBrainz has this, but I know for a fact that lastfm has a big discovery function. You can import your spotify listen history and start scrobbling from there, and you’re bound to find new artists!

Currently rip my CDs and then listen on my phone/PC as digital music. I also pirate music from artist I find problematic to avoid supporting them, and pirate old music I used to listen to which I plan to purchase later (not really in the position to buy all the music I’ve listened for free in my whole life, plus I feel like I’ve streamed them enough to support them, so I don’t feel that guilty). My partner has vinyl records, so sometimes I listen to that, too. Also the ocassional concert when I can afford it, of course, I need that sweet live music.

My current favorite band… Probably Twenty One Pilots? I don’t listen to a lot of bands lol, I mostly listen to solo artists, in which case my favorite artist is by far Ren.

I like Twenty One Pilots because they’re like everything teen me would’ve loved. Specially a fan of Self Titled / NPI era. Raw garage-tier songs about your problems with God, and faith overall? Sign me tf in, I’ve had quite the history with religion.

And I like Ren because of his hard-to-label music style from song to song, while so very clearly being a Ren song, with all of his theatrics, lyricism, life struggles, cynisism, and a splash of religion. I’ve been following him for a while and it’s amazing to see so far he’s come.

Speaking of Ren and Twenty One Pilots… They’re playing at a festival together next year (REN BARELY PLAYS LIVE)… And I can’t fucking attend because it’s in another continent. fuck me.

Ah, none of my circle really uses that feature so I wasn’t aware of its implementation. It feels like a super basic thing, suprised it’s not on Stoat yet. I can see how that’s also a dealbreaker to some.

I’m really rooting for it, it has sooo much potential. Biggest seller for me is how lightweight it is compared to Discord.

In its current stage, it’s a difficult switch if you come from Discord. No screenshare is a dealbreaker for me and many.

I have my account, I sometimes use it to talk in big servers, but I’ve had no luck trying to bring friends in. And without friends there’s no much reason to log in daily.

Maybe one day when it gets the good features.

The thing I love most about drawing is the ability to visualize the silly ideas and characters in my head exactly the way I want it to. I love seeing my pieces and the characters come to life in such a vibrant way. And I absolutely adore the entire world of character design, being able to tell so much with just the way a character looks and is presented is so magical, definetly my favorite part of the process.

def having music on 24/7

As much money as the parents can give before the child becomes spoiled and has poor money managing skills. So, with good education and parenting, all the money they need.

Not good. Done it a few times in my life, and I hate myself for it. I was in the recieving end for a while, like 5 years. It feels awful, specially if you are dealing with insecurities.

I have to plug in my favorite vg voice actor: Kellen Goff! A recurrent cast for the Five Nights at Freddy’s franchise, and one of the best performances in League of legends! His range and vocal control is crazy, plus he looks like a really fun guy based on his multiple interviews.

Notable roles:
Fiddlesticks (League of Legends)
Arnold (Five Nights at Freddy’s: Secret Of The Mimic)
Funtime Freddy (Five Nights at Freddy’s: Sister Location)

And a really fun watch of him explaining how to do the Fiddelsticks voice: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czsRZd2-6Ac

Honestly, I’d like to see my life on the big screen. Every story I write, and characters I make, have elements of what I have experienced on my life, so a realistic depiction of my life could be interesting.

To boil down the plot: Kid growing up in awful conditions (and I mean awful), with shitty but compelling parents. Does a lot terrible stuff when growing up and eventually meets an equally (maybe slightly more) broken person. Together they learn to love the other and themselves.

The movie wouldn’t be afraid to depict those terrible moments, so you could truly get to see how awful that person was, and decide for yourself whether they deserve the good things happening in their life, or deserve the punishment they never got. I think that’d be my goal. To show myself as transparently as possible, without pushing my representation either way, to see how people would react to me leaving my past behind and finding happiness.

The movie would also heavily touch in the subjects of: SA and CSA, religion trauma, neurodivergence, mental ilnesses and late diagnosis, the true impact of divorced parents, a shaky gender journey, terrible and extremely cringeworthy teen romance, paired with the most complex strangers-to-friends-to-lovers-to-friends-to-enemies-to-strangers-to-friends-to-lovers-to-it’s-complicated you’ve ever seen, and a whole lot of self loathing.

I’d also invest big on music. Music means so much to me and that has to be reflected on the movie.

I think the movie could become somewhat of a success thanks to the controversy it would spark. I estimate a 50% of people would side with the protagonist and praise the movie for showcasing such a raw journey of self improvement, and so many would see themselves reflected on the story and be touched at how despite how unworthy and unlovable you may feel, good things can happen to you.
The other 50% would find the movie outrageous. They would bash it for downplaying the terrible stuff done by the protagonist and how “they never got what they deserved”. They’d preach the movie is harmful for displaying a story with a happy ending for the scum of the earth, and how that is the entire focus of the story and appearently the moral of the story.

I’m slowly allowing myself to eat more after a long history of dealing with an ED :)

Fandoms here are scarce so I’m gonna go and say I probably know more about Five Nights at Freddy’s than the average Lemmy user

He got an account just to spy me on here from time to time (I mean it in a cute way), but I don’t think he has any interest of actually using it, for now at least. He’s not really a “social media” person, Instagram is like his “main platform” but only because all his friends are there lol

He has shown interest in my “decentralization journey” (for lack of a better term, I guess) because we share similar values and he recognizes that moving traffic to popular social media websites like Instagram or Twitter is harmful because the parent companies are awful (less focus on privacy, more focus on environmental impact and political issues). Got him to use Bluesky instead of Twitter because of this.