Geetnerd

My father was a raging narcissist.

Narcissism is a psychological defense mechanism formed in early childhood to fight an inferiority complex formed from abuse, neglect, or both. He never talked about it, but he came from the era where no “Real Man” admitted weakness, admitted fault, or apologized. That was weak, and “womanish.” He used the “P” word, but you know what I’m talking about. He never matured beyond mid teenage boy emotional maturity.

Anyways, I was born 13 years after my next sibling, and my entire life, my father made me feel that I was an embarrassment, and was worthless, useless, and stupid. Because instead of accepting that he had a hand in my conception, he blamed me for fucking his life up after he thought he was done with kids.

He was also a raging alcoholic, and I fucked up his party time. My mom was raised to be the perfect 50’s housewife, and he felt he should be able to do whatever he wanted, when he wanted, with who he wanted. And now, there’s this kid fucking it up. That didn’t stop him from dragging a young child to every hole in the wall bar in 5 counties, and making me drive him home when I was 12 years old. Oh, and he also passed out many times when he was supposed to pick me up.

He died alone, without a friend in the world, by is own hand, because he was so selfish, and callous.

So yeah, I could have done without that.

“And that’s why we deserve the 75% markup on our products. That’s why your peers won’t think you’re a scab, and a loser.”

The only US politician one I truly trust, and still the one of the 4 or 5 that l like slightly less, is Bernie Sanders.

OK, I guess that was a joke. A very abstract joke. But OK.

Yeah, but this is a person who doesn’t know, and wants someone to explain, and quantify it.

Even if they never truly understand, or truly feel it, it would be advantageous to intellectually have an idea of what it is, and to be able to mimic it to fit into common society, and not be ostracized.

I think I have this.

I feel everything in a social situation. To a painful, heighetend degree.

Empathy is imagining how you would feel in another person’s place, if they were insulted, or assaulted, or injured. Or even happy, or joyous.

Even if you don’t feel it, learn to fake it, and attempt to aid them. Maybe you’ll feel it, eventually.

Not to be a smartass, but… YouTube?

I almost went to art school out of high school, and speaking from experience, practice… a lot. You’ll get better. There will be a moment when it starts to come out pretty much the way you wanted, and your confidence will soar, and you’ll want to draw/paint/sculpt more, and you’ll keep getting better and better.

But, find a good YouTube channel. Best of luck. Don’t quit.

Linux time, nerds, who aren’t already using it.

I can see all of them up to 5, which looks blank to me.

No, that’s divine.

I know a woman like this. She just doesn’t have those pain receptors.

There’s a woman who can smell Parkinson’s Disease with almost 100% accuracy.

https://www.npr.org/sections/health-shots/2020/03/23/820274501/her-incredible-sense-of-smell-is-helping-scientists-find-new-ways-to-diagnose-di

On the same tangent, there was a band called Flyleaf that had a minor hit in 2005 called “All Around Me.”

In the video, the bass player is hopping around like he’s high on crack the entire video. It’s extremely distracting. The director should have nailed his feet to the floor.

Emotion.

Music the the closest thing to real magic we have.

Edit: that said, some people have… weird facial tics when playing that are distracting, and sometimes disturbing. Two guys on YouTube who review gear, and stuff, who I won’t name, seem like really nice guys, guys you’d want to hang and play with. But, one chews his tongue the entire time, and the other stares stone faced like a robot into the camera the entire time. The latter has worked on that after people mentioned it, and is much better about it.

To be clear, I’m not mocking them. Like I said, they seem like really cool dudes. But that kind of thing can take all of your attention, instead of listening to the playing.

Or speaking without permission with a vagina?!

The impertinence!

I agree.

There’s no helping actual pedophiles. That’s who they are.

Thanks for the info.

But I think they’ll still need an ad driven free version to gain acceptance.

I didn’t mean to imply all of the hotels and motels were “In On It.”

I didn’t think about that.

The whole issue is abominable, and odious.