鳳凰院 凶真 (Hououin Kyouma)

(He/Him/佢/他)
Native Speaker of Cantonese, Mandarin, Taishanese, and English.


光復香港,時代革命。
Liberate Hong Kong, Revolution of Our Times.

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  • Lol my mom told me she regretted giving birth to me because I expressed suicidal thoughts.

    I came from a “communist” country where there was a strict birth control policy because of thr fears of overpopulation, I was the second child my mother illegally gave birth to. So she said because she broke the law to have me and had to pay huge fines, that I owe her or something. And even my grandmother said I owe my mom for risking legal punishment to give birth to me. And that suicide is cowardly and disrespectful/ungrateful for her “sacrifices” and if she had known about my thoughts, she wouldn’t have “wasted so much resources” on me.

    Bro, I really wanna be that type of dipshit kid and say: “well if you have me so much, then maybe the party should’ve forcibly sterilized you before you gave birth to me”, but I just ended up crying and have an existential crisis, my birth wasn’t even supposed to happen, the fucking government literally hated my existence anyways, rejected my existence, I’m just another anomaly, born only out of sheer luck, the card were never really stacked in my favor to begin with. I think all the bad luck I’m getting might be just nature trying to course correct, to get rid of me, the anamaly.



  • TLDR, most likely Canada, but honestly, I wanna travel around a bit first before actually settling down.

    Hmm honestly I wanna just live in Taiwan for like maybe a year or two just to see how different it is from mainland China. Relearn Mandarin (Traditional writing systen is probably gonna be a pain in the ass tho).

    Then um…

    See, if money wasn’t an issue, I’m probably gonna try get some sort of Diplomatic Immunity thing from a western country (so I don’t get arrested in case PRC government found out about my political views) and then visit mainland China, I’ll visit Guangzhou and visit where I used to live to see if that helps with the childhood trauma I’ve endured there. (or it might backfire, but it’s worth a try if I can safely enter the country). Probably visit my parents villages, see if it bring up any memories from when I was a kid. Then leave quickly before anyone recognize me (because I hate the idea of them being like “Oh is that [father/mother]'s Second Son? You came back to visit from America? How are you?.. etc…” nah fam, sorry don’t wanna talk lol, too much social anxiety, I’m just here for nostalgia, I’m gonna gtfo soon after.)

    Then I’ll go to Hong Kong, I have very faint memories of being there as a kid, I have seen photos me being there, but I can’t really remember much. I’ll see if I could bring up some memories.

    Then I’ll probably wanna live in like Singapore, South Korea, Japan, Australia, France, Germany, Norway, Finland, UK, each for like maybe 6 months to a year. These are countries I just always had in the back of my mind for some reason.

    Then after this sort of “world tour”, I’ll just chill in Canada, get a bunker and suvivak supplies in case. But since money isn’t an issue, I’d be doing a lot of lobbying. I’m probably being hypocritical if I had a lot of money then funding progressive policies, but whatever.

    See, Canada is very multicultural just like America, a lot of ethnic Chinese, so I’d fit in fine. But the most important thing is, no guns for most people. And as I rich dude, I could just get an exemption very easily (yes I know, peak hypocrisy lolol). Canadians seem much less crazy with the mass shootings. Europe seems fine too, much they seem less diverse because they aren’t much of immigration countries, I mean I wouldn’t really call myself a “German” or a “French” even if I get citizenshop there, because those are actual ethnicities, but I could call myself Canadian if I got citizenship. As for the US wealth tax thing… bro I’m still keeping the Citizenship, I’ll just do what rich people do, not pay the taxes lolol.

    To summarize: Canada, very maple syrup, very cool.